I cried alot last night. The tears would not stop coming. I think I went thru at least 10 Kleenex. My eyes were almost swollen shut when I woke up in the morning. I used eyes drops several times today, cold compresses and rested my eyes with little naps. They still hurt tonight.
What is the cause of my eye drips? Children, yes, children, they grow too fast, you do the best you can as a parent, you and them survive ICU's, Graduations, teacher's meetings, arguments, worrying and then they fly the coop. As a parent you still pray, suggest, help financial, and pray some more. They find love, get a job, buy a car, a house, have a kid in any kind of order these days and you hope you did your best. Then years later you find out things they they didn't tell you. I asked myself, where was I when all this happened and I didn't have a clue. And then it HIT ME! I really don't know you after all these years, 30 to be exact. I guess I have better listen more, apologize more, learn more and forgive more. My tears have stopped, my eyes will feel alot better tomorrow. I will continue to pray, let God lead them and teach them better than I ever could. And most of all still love them.
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