This is a strange year for me. Some of you know, I closed my consignment shop called "Just for You, Too, in January after a 7 years stint. Since January I have been trying to figure out what my life's calling is now and how do I pay off my loan from the shop that I took out to make it rich, but ended up making me poor. Simple living was what I wanted. Back to gardening, eating healthy, selling on e-bay & getting exersize. But instead, I have been learning- Learning to accept an angry middle -dementia mother (85), learning to support an end of life Hospice mother-in-law with ALS (78), & learning to help a 86-year old neighbor, whose family have all passed on, who lives in a nursing home. I am exhusted with dealing with their issues. Add to that watching my two grandchildren once a week, helping my other daughter with our new grandson and being there for my other children and husband; has left me wanting to run away or get a real job so I can really say No to everybody or, or what? Who am I, What do I want to do??????
My older and much wiser sister told me this morning that where I am at, right at this moment' is where I am suppose to be.
Just Be, Be Available, Be Open!
I guess like a flower?
Simple Living-Just Be, Just Be Open to the Universe, to Nature, to God's whisper & to my Inner Heart Beat. WAITING!
The book I am reading right now is "Twelve by Twelve - A one-room cabin off the grid & beyond the American Dream" by William Powers. http://www.williampowersbooks.com/
A book about a 36 year old guy, who is feeling out of sorts with American Living after living and working with the Bolivia People trying to save the rain forest. He stays in a 12 by 12 shedhome in NC near No Name Creek without electric, gas or water. http://www.tumbleweedhouse.com/ , http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SbRvsWuWNUM
New word to add to my vocabulary: permaculture farming-"the things your grandparents knew and your parents forgot," Holistic approach to sustainable landscape, agricultural, and home design.
I just want to find a place like this to run to. No phone, No emergencies, No drama, Just CALM! Imagine my surprise as I thought about this!
My 10 by 12 creative sancuary!
My fish pond with waterfall!
Well imagine, to my surprise, that I am doing just that. My sewing/computer room that I spend most of my time these last 8 months is a 10 by 12. Even though I live in a suburb, geese & hawks & bats fly over head, my waterfall sounds comes from my small home-made pond filled with 20 or so fish, and even though I don't live in a forest, I have a small garden with 5 large trees on my small square of land. The river is just a small walk away in which I can kayak in quiet solitude.
The Mighty Maumee River.
My 10 by 12 creative sancuary!
3 comments:
Looks amazing and you ARE blessed!!! :)
It is a lot of work taking care of the elderly parents. My mom did a lot for us, so now I take care of her. My mil while she was alive always took care of others when they became ill, including her mother and her next door neighbors.
What a lovely post. I'm glad you realised the things around you. It's so nice when you just take a moment and just 'be'.
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